Or should I say, Hello Anxiety?
To say that March was a kick in the nuts is definitely an understatement.
As I’m writing this, the entire country (same with a few others) is in an Enchanced Community Quarantine (ECQ) status. A viral pandemic has rocked the nation and the world that people didn’t exactly had the time to process everything before the gravity of the situation hit us.
Our physical and mental health were (and are still are) put to the test. Who knew having so much worries on our minds and so much free time in our hands is a bad combination. Before the ECQ, I wanted to take a month’s worth of leave of absence from my day job. I figured I needed the time to sort things out, to iron out my personal issues. And then the health crisis hit.
I’ve never had this much time in my hands for a very long time.
Before this, my to do list has been filled with so many things to complete, items to check off, passion projects that I’ve put on hold for the same excuse — I don’t have the time.
And now that I have all this time, I can’t seem to know where to begin.
In the first few days, all I did was sleep late and slept in, cook and eat and binge watch episodes on Netflix, and you know what, I was contented. I’ve wanted to try that “Netflix and chill” life and try I did.
Few days down, I realized that “This is not my reality.” This is temporary. In a few weeks I know I have to go back to work, pay my bills, do the things that adults are supposed to do. And then it hit me that I can’t stay in the “Netflix and chill” mode.
I have to freaking MOVE.
Whether I like it or not.
So last Monday, I gathered my lists, went over the items I needed to do, items I’ve been wanting to do.
First thing I did was find some homebased work. My day job unfortunately, has rendered me sorta useless at the time being. Useless meaning I don’t have a project currently, which means that I am on overhead, which means that in today’s crisis, I’m not supposed to be paid since I don’t have “work”. I won’t be able to get paid until I get back to the office and bill on projects. Thankfully, I have still have emergency leave credits which would allow me to get paid somehow but after a few weeks, I’ll be on a “no-work-no-pay” status. I did find a few homebased-job leads to follow through, so that’s good, I guess.
Second this I did was download some fitness and exercise apps. I literally have the whole day to fit exercise into my “schedule”. I mean, what schedule?
And most importantly, I brushed off the dust on my blog and revisited the list of other passion projects I’ve wanted to do.
Hence, here I am.
I’m literally open twenty four hours! I can revamp this blog, write post, exercise, do some homebase work, cook, eat and basically do anything I please in the comfort of my home!
Wasn’t this something I’ve been wishing for a very, very long time?
So yeah, I’m hoping that with all this time in my hands I can be productive and do things that will make me better physically, financially, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.
Yes, March wasn’t very good to us and it was a cold goodbye.
But a new start is here, Hello April.
I pray for our nation and for the whole world.
And I pray that all the people living in it will still have hope and love in their hearts. And when this crisis is all over, may we remember how we stayed strong and thankful that each new day is a blessing.
A blessing not everyone is fortunate enough to receive.
How’s your April so far?